argh school. argh broken relationships.
ahhh exam in 7.5 hours!
BUT yay tagged!!!!! i never get tagged so this is extra fun.
MmmMMM good songs:
the Killers - all the things that I have done
David Crowder Band - come and listen
Madonna - Hung up
Foo fighters - Resolve
The Arcade Fire - Rebellion
James Blunt - You're Beautiful
Kanye West - Heard 'Em Say
-> and a close 8th: Metric- Monster Hospital
On a completely different topic, I got semi-frustrated on sunday. Is it necessary to insist on having something that nobody responds to? Where do you draw the line between faithfulness and misplaced hope? How do we change things so that they become relevant? I'm sort of pulling in opposite directions here.. my churched instincts tell me that when I stick with something and I wait for God's plan to unfold, it all makes sense in the end. I waited with benj and I think our girls group is onto something. But the other half of me wants to just walk away and say, "haha good luck with that, see you later!" My hope isn't gone but it's hard to see exactly where God is leading us.. Where does the flaw lie - is it in the people or is it in the structure? I'm not sure... I can't really tell.
i want to feel connected.
God expand my vision. i don't want to be narrow-minded. i don't want to be defensive. i don't want to be judgemental.
a creative answer must lie somewhere.
2 comments:
emily, you should really go to bed earlier... but i love you too!
Hi ! You are so full of hope... it's amazing. I know that if anything. I am probably part of the problem and not the solution about Benj.. but I do know that we've been through a lot of youth ministry over the years together (softball and Gilead) and when we were quite hopeless and thought things were going to fall apart, things ended up turning 180 and we've had some of the most awesome years and seasons. Maybe what is needed is a new vision... setting a new goal? Stagnation can only be combatted with change :)
ps. I heard that that girls group was amazing :) Ally told me that she had a really good chat with you girls!
Love much, me
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