i am so so so so tired. exhausted.
this week was insane: history paper, passion, psy396 midterm

history paper: one of the most repetitive papers i have ever written
psy396 midterm: worst midterm ever. i've never guessed so much in my life... drug mechanisms, drug names, polypharmacy...... i'm pretty sure that i did really poorly (way worse than linguistics) but i am so tired that i can't even think about it right now

Tuesday November 22, 2005: PASSION TORONTO
"We will lift our eyes to heaven, we will wrap our lives in your life, we will lift our eyes to heaven, to you."
.. passion passion passion... that was a really great night worth every minute of waiting (in my opinion anyway). i was looking forward to this event for an entire month because I felt like I was walking through the desert lately (and super thirsty) and i KNEW that it would be a night of encouragement and inspiration. God definitely did not disappoint. In the beginning of the night, I went into worship with so much baggage but God really humbled me at the very first song - He reminded me of how His love is worthy of being my foundation and that I need to centre my life around Jesus. The evening served to remind me of the bigger picture... that it involves so much more than all of my materialism, my pride, or even all the hurt and frustration that i carry around with me every day. so much more. there are still so many things in my heart that aren't resolved yet and there is so much crap in my life but i don't know... i have hope. I can be a part of something bigger if I want because God's grace is enough. i feel more awake... so that has to mean something.

Like Mel wrote on her blog, we are all like nano-bacteria but God loves us and gives each of us meaning and worth. At the end of the day, Passion reminded me that we are not forgotten. God has not forgotten Toronto (or UT) and He has not forgotten me. I am His nano-bacteria

i want to be part of something bigger
i want to worship Him with abandon
i want to live for his renown