"...against the black they look so white coming down from such a height..."

When I went to science centre last year for camp, they had a kiosk where you could take a picture of a certain part of space (like some specific galaxy or planet or nebula type of thing) and then e-mail it to yourself. So this is a picture taken by some telescope in outer space of some beautiful stars

i've always had a thing for stars. that's probably why i like david crowder's song so much.. feeling dirty during camping and walking on campus really late at night can both be redeemed by a good view of the stars. they are so pure and so white and just looking at them reminds me of how big God is and how pure His love is. because of that, i kind of felt like i was living in the stars this week.

This past week had some great moments
1) I feel like I had some really meaningful conversations. There is always a feeling of relief when you can be honest with someone and it's also a lovely feeling when you realize the other person trusts you enough to be honest as well.
2) i got my history midterm back and i did not fail
3) i bought a scarf for a dollar. A DOLLAR.
4) i read a book that clarissa lent me called Blue Like Jazz by Don Miller and it was amazing. i told clarissa that it's so good it makes me want to buy a million copies and give it to everybody i know. The tagline at the bottom of the cover says, "Nonreligious thoughts on Christian Spirituality" and that's what it was. the author's observations on Christianity today, his living habits, and what kind of christian life he wants to live really blew me away. i really don't know how to explain the "main message" of the book but i was challenged by what i read and it changed my outlook and attitude on a lot of things. It gave me a better picture of how to be a Christian in practical ways and made me want to change the way i am living my life.
5) Worship night. Good fellowship, good speaker, good lyrics. Need i say more?

God can speak to someone in a lot of ways and He really managed to make His presence known to me this week through the things i just listed (except maybe the scarf thing..). During the first semester of school, i felt overwhelmingly sad and alone. I was also struggling with my spiritual life - i consciously stepped away from God and chose to live selfishly thinking that it would make me happier than a life of sacrifice and worship. after christmas, i thind i realized that this wasn't the way life was meant to be because i felt as if i just drifted through time and my insides felt dead. In the past month or so, God has been restoring me and i think it was last night during worship that i felt like something in my soul was finally stirring again. i felt alive for the first time in a long time. i felt whole again.

i think i may be on the verge of something bigger and better.